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It is always a little scary when God puts something on your heart to share, when you are not so sure you are ready. The prompting is there, but fear easily steps in when you begin to consider what others may think of you.  This would be the current state of my own heart, and I am fighting through the strong desire to simply switch modes and write a lighthearted version of the story, one that is vague and not so personally attached to the walls of my own heart.  Let’s just say I find myself pacing through the garden, much like Adam and Eve searching for a few fig leaves to hide behind.


Satan will want me to hide from baring my soul, and he will want you to hide from reading this.  He relishes in keeping us focused only on things at the surface, but tries to hide the rest.  It is a warping of the mind that keeps you so distracted and focused on the most shallow of issues, like the size of your thighs or your neighbor’s new car, that there is no energy left to see yourself naked. By naked I am referring to the raw and unedited version of you.  The “you” that’s in a complete state of nakedness before your Creator.  He sees you just as you are, and there is no need to hide.  


Today, I want to give us all permission to look into the deep places, the not so pretty corners of our hearts that we so desperately attempt to cover and to refuse to remain in hiding.


To live in hiding produces anxiety, much like the feeling you got in the pit of your stomach when you played hide-n-seek as a child.  So, it is with our lives when we hide behind a false persona of who we think we are supposed to be, yet all the while having no real victory over the sin in our lives because we are too afraid to search the deep places of our souls.  We build societies, communities, and kingdoms around a strict code of boundaries, in which we only allow others to see the “us” that we are comfortable presenting.   


I know this, because that is the way I lived a significant portion of my life.  I used to live behind my own veil of shallowness, so much so, that if you could have taken a magnifying glass to my soul, you would have cringed at the scene before you.  It would seem that in this day and age it is quite socially acceptable to confess sins such as sexual immorality, drugs, or pornography, and confession is always good, but what about those not so obvious transgressions?  You know, the ones that are much easier to hide, not only from others but most of all from ourselves.   Those that may look or sound something like this:


She is prettier than I am, and far more talented, but it is much too difficult for me to allow myself to admit that I am jealous…so instead, I will just pick her apart in my mind, assigning impure motives behind everything she does.  I’ll make fun of her posts, and laugh with my “friends” at her expense.  This will surely make me feel better. (JEALOUSY)

I want to be noticed.  I want to be successful.  I am self-seeking. I am actually a promoter of myself, and place a large portion of my self-worth on the number of “likes” I will receive, but I will convince myself that it is all for God. (SELF-SEEKING)


Keep up your persona and win at all cost. For any issue that arises, I rush to place the blame on someone else.  I have constructed my life in such a way that no one can hold me accountable, and to admit a flaw is to show weakness; I refuse to be weak. (PRIDEFUL)


My worth is in my beauty.  As long as I am beautiful, I will be happy and relish the attention that I receive from both men and women.  However, I will convince myself that my pursuit of physical perfection is merely for health benefits; I could never be that shallow. (SHALLOW)


You secretly desire the destruction of someone who has hurt you in some way, pretending to want the best for them, when in the depths of your heart you know that is not the case. You have built a wall so high around your heart, that you cannot allow yourself to admit that you desire to be the author of justice. (RESENTMENT)


Am I completely messed up beyond words, or can anyone else on the planet attest to struggling with any of these things?  No one can read your thoughts. Be honest with yourself.  


Why are we so afraid to see ourselves as we truly are?  Because we fear that no one could possibly love the raw and unedited version of us.  I get it. There is a fear in me, even as I am typing that you will reject the real me and prefer an edited version.  But, there is also another part of me that is unbelievably relieved that I no longer desire to attempt to create that version.  It is exhausting, and only draws people to ME – a meaningless attempt at fulfillment.  I want to draw people to the feet of Jesus.  I want to be a part of their story, and for them to be a part of mine as we see Jesus break down the walls of our hearts and experience true Grace.  

A grace that grants us permission to see the ugliest places of our hearts.   A grace that covers not only the things that we have done but that covers who we are: jealous, self-seeking, prideful, shallow, resentful, etc.  It not only covers but loves us right in the midst of our darkest moments.


For years, I refused to allow myself to see the inner flaws of my heart, and it was the source of much anxiety in my life. I no longer want to live that way.  I want you to see the raw and unedited version of me because it is the place where God has done the most beautiful work.  I want to be so honest with my struggles, because I want you to know and believe that God can heal the ugly, broken-down places of your heart.  I want to live a life of Paul where true confidence and strength were found within his weaknesses.  I want to kill any desire to hide behind a false pretense of having everything figured out, but instead, I want to bare my soul, so my flaws simply point to the one who does. Are you ready to truly live original?  Then run barefoot and naked with me straight to the foot of the cross, where therein lies all the covering we will ever need.


Live Original. Live Raw, Unedited, and Unafraid. 

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Jill Dasher

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  • Dyna Ogonowski says:

    Wow!! I love this and plan to share it on our Church’s facebook page. I am guilty of the same. I don’t want to pretend. I want someone to look at me and see Jesus not a spokesperson. Thank you, Jill!

  • Jayden Raines says:

    Jayden Raines
    Sadie, I absolutely love your blog! You are my inspiration!!! You have been blessed with a wonderful family, and I pray that God keeps blessing you and everyone you care for! Also, I cannot wait to see you on stage in Pensacola next month!

  • Tiffany Villarreal says:

    Beautifully said. Thank you for sharing.

  • Gary Jessup says:

    Thank you Jill!

    I think that so many people have the desire to be this open and raw but really have now idea how or where to begin. Support is very important and that is what this blog offers. It helps me and I know it is helping others. Keep sharing.

  • mariah hamil says:

    Ouch…. this post hurt–in a positive and challenging way! Super eye-opening and made me realize that I’m hiding behind some of those sin to cover up my own hurt and insecurities. Thank you for sharing this wisdom and perspective with us and challenging us to hand over those veils to Jesus and live more authentically!

  • Yvette Chavez says:

    Wow! I realize I am hiding behind some very TALL walls! It is truly hard to be original. This is gonna take some time

  • So good! It’s hard to be relatable without some level of honesty. And while being "relatable" isn’t the ultimate goal, it does help us help others see sin for what it is and hopefully down the road…Jesus for who he is. Savior! Thanks for the post. Keep them coming!

  • Charmell Carr says:

    Wow…even at my age, raising teens at the same time a few friends are, I find myself feeling inadequate as a parent because I tend to compare their kid’s accomplishments to my kids. Lately I’ve been catching myself and remembering my kids are just as wonderful and successful in their own way. Thank you for listening to that nudge and sharing what we all hide behind. God bless!

  • Ally Walker says:

    Wow, this hit me hard–"I want to kill any desire to hide behind a false pretense of having everything figured out, but instead, I want to bare my soul, so that my flaws simply point to the one who does." I could not have said it better myself and this was something I definitely needed to hear today.

  • Colin Weierbach says:

    I really needed that. Tears of love and joy are flowing. Thank you and God bless you. CP

  • Kristin Gonzales says:

    Absolutely LOVE this post! Thanks SO MUCH for sharing! <3

  • Mary Jane Wilkerson says:

    Thank you so much for this! Tears of JOY were coming down my face as I read this! ❤️

  • Angie B says:

    I don’t understand how to run barefoot & naked straight to the foot of the cross. Please help me.

  • Angie B says:

    oh no. Sadie can you Please wait & go to Pensacola in December? I’m from Pensacola & have been living in Colorado & am moving back to Pensacola the middle of November & want to see you so very very bad.

  • Ashley Brolsma says:

    I myself have been struggling with this. I just began pursuing god and my walk with Jesus at the beginning of this year and have had so much to heal from such as my dad not being around, seeing abuse at home as a kid and other things. I hid a lot of that emotion and buried it deep inside for years on end and didn’t want to feel any of it. so, when I began pursuing god and accepted him into my heart he’s shown me that he wants all of me not just the good but, the bad and down right ugly parts of my heart too.
    At the beginning of this year I would not have been posting this comment or even sharing anything from my past with anybody openly but, God is so amazing and he has covered the deepest darkest parts of my heart and soul with so much love and grace that I want to share it because it shares his love and his light.

    I needed to read this blog post today because today has been one of those days that I just want to run and hide but this post was a reminder of just how amazing He is and not to run and hide to run to his feet let Him hold me and let Him heal ❤️

  • Timothy Stewart says:

    Wow this is powerful!! I struggle with some of these, but I am trusting and believing God is delivering me.

  • Ashley Moulin says:

    This is unbelievably fantastic. My Heavenly Father spoke to me. Thank you. <3

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  • Kaye Hauser says:

    A great word and one that should be shouted from the rooftops to all that would listen. I pray your blog blows up and is recognized all over the world because you are sharing truth!

  • Julia Emerson says:

    Refreshing read. Great perspective. Would like to hear more on this topic!

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