Face the Fear

Face the Fear

Have you ever found yourself worrying about what is gonna happen? How are you going to be able to make rent? How are you gonna pay off student loans? How are you gonna get through the really hard math class? It’s ok because I have too. 

Worry is a common problem that many christians have. In fact, it’s a common tactic of the enemy to try and distract you from God. There is a book by C.S. Lewis called The Screwtape Letters. In short the novel is about an advanced demon, Screwtape, training his nephew, Wormwood, and giving him advice to become a demon and how to get to humans and lure them away from God. Well, in chapter six, Screwtape brings up anxiety and suspense. There is a quote from the novel that says “There is nothing like suspense and anxiety for barricading a human’s mind against the Enemy. He wants men to be concerned with what they do; our business is to keep them thinking about what will happen to them.” (Lewis). The Devil sticks to his same tactics of worry and anxiety to keep us from looking to God. It is a premier barricade.

If you’re reading this you have probably fought many battles with anxiety but with every new season comes new worries. I just graduated, I know what I’m going to college for, I paid my college dues for the semester. However, I am still worried. I’m worried about making new friends, living with a new person, etc. worry is a constant struggle and, what we might not realize, a constant cross.

Luke 9:23 says “Whoever wants to be my disciple must first deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me”. A lot of times we see the forthcoming situation as the cross that we have to carry. That whatever happens, that is the cross that we have to carry. It even talks about that in the latter parts of chapter 6 of The Screwtape Letters. However, do we even realize that our cross to take u is the fear and anxiety that we are facing about the situation. We have to confront and get rid of our fear, then we can focus on the outcome and following God’s will.

Now how do you confront fear? Honestly, all I know how to do is to speak to it. However this isn’t just simply saying “Go away fear”. No, it’s more than that. It’s using the best weapon that we have. The weapon that is sharper than a double-edged sword. It’s his word. 

What does the Word of God say about fear? A couple of things actually. One of my favorites that I always run back to is the assurance that is found in Matthew Chapter 6 funny enough. 

 

“Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing?  Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they?  And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you. Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”

Matthew 6:25-34

 

Each time that I tend to worry about something, I find myself going back to this passage of scripture, which for me is literally titled “The Cure for Anxiety”. It is highlighted to the tee in my Bible, the page is kind of crumply, and I even wrote it down separately to have it on its own piece of paper. I will never forget the words that it says. Yes we might be worried, but doesn’t he promise through this, because these are indeed Jesus’ words, that we will certainly have everything we need? It might not look like everything we want but surely it is everything we need. Jesus never lies. He never breaks his promises. He promises provision. Why do we still get so worried?

It truly is like the letters say. This fear and anxiety keeps us focused on what comes next and not the fear that we are actually facing. Because once you really speak scripture to the fear it is immediately confronted and slowly you start to not worry about these things. 

Maybe you don’t feel worried now, you don’t have a fear about anything coming up. That’s good but you can hide this passage in your heart because it will come up. I had gone through a period like that recently where this passage was read to me and for once I was like “Hey, I’m actually not worried about anything right now, I feel stable.” I and those around myself had actually had the song “The Lord Will Provide” , which is basically this passage in song form, stuck in our heads as well. Later on we realized it was God’s provision and preparation because we had gotten some news that would normally rattle a household. But through it all we found peace because we had been reminded of his provision. 

So let this be a reminder of his provision. Don’t let fear get in the way. Some of you might be experiencing job loss, others might be experiencing a bad diagnosis. Others of you might just be in the same situation I am, worrying about friends and starting new things in college or life in general. You don’t have to be scared of what’s to come. The Father loves you immensely and will always be there to provide for you in everything that you need. Again it might not be what you want, but what you need and what he knows that you need. Don’t forget the words found in Matthew 6 but also what is found in Philippians 4:6-7 “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” and 1 Peter 5:7 “Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.”. Hiding scriptures in your heart is the strongest weapon that you can use against the battle of the enemy. So don’t worry about what the future holds, instead face and fight the fear that you have with scripture. 

How do I know if it’s God’s Plan?

How do I know if it’s God’s Plan?

About a month ago, I was introduced to this opportunity. One that would upend my plans and my life to follow through. This opportunity wasn’t bad at all, in fact, it is what God calls us to do. To go and tell the world about him. But i didn’t take it. 

I know. You might be wondering, “Gabby, why didn’t you take it”. Well the truth is, I didn’t know. I didn’t know at the time why I didn’t take it. When I told the person closest to me, it was a mess. We had a plan for my life to go a certain way for a couple months now and it seemed to be uprooted by this. And the fact that that plan was now being uprooted seemed to push me more into this opportunity. I had heard stories all the time about “Man plans, God laughs” and stories of God taking people from where they are into new and great things that were unexpected. In hindsight, I associated a big change with God’s voice. But we know that’s not always true.

1 Kings 19 tells the story of the prophet Elijah after he proved that God was the only God. Jezebel was coming after him and he was scared so he fled. That is the first thing that stuck out to me. It started with Elijah running off because he was scared. For so long before the opportunity arose, people in my life were telling me that the major I had wanted to go into was hard. That I would probably fail a class or two and that this road wasn’t gonna be easy. I think something in me wanted to run. Run away from it all and find the easy thing. And though I hadn’t physically ran from it towards something else, my mind was already running and my physical spirit was waiting for the announcer to say go. 

After Elijah had ran he went into solitude and prayed endlessly to the Lord. Before this opportunity came about, I had too prayed, I prayed for a way out. Constant “Lord if this isn’t for me give me a sign” prayers, you know. And then the Lord led Elijah further to Mount Sinai. Then it says:

“Go out and stand before me on the mountain,” the Lord told him. And as Elijah stood there, the Lord passed by, and a mighty windstorm hit the mountain. It was such a terrible blast that the rocks were torn loose, but the Lord was not in the wind. After the wind there was an earthquake, but the Lord was not in the earthquake. And after the earthquake there was a fire, but the Lord was not in the fire. And after the fire there was the sound of a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he wrapped his face in his cloak and went out and stood at the entrance of the cave. And a voice said, “What are you doing here, Elijah?” ‭‭1 Kings‬ ‭19‬:‭11‬-‭13‬ ‭

As Elijah was waiting for the Lord to speak to him many big things occurred. There was a mighty windstorm, an earthquake, and a fire. Yet each time it says the Lord was not in those. He was in the gentle small whisper and Elijah knew it. So he went out and he was right. He heard the voice of the Lord because he listened to the small whisper. More importantly he didn’t listen to the big things. And we know that God has spoken through these things before. He spoke to Moses through a burning bush so he very well could of been in the fire. But he wasn’t. Elijah wasn’t Moses. These big events; the wind, the earthquake, the fire, they all are known to change lives rapidly and largely. However for Elijah, God was in the whisper.

I relate a lot to Elijah in this story because I felt a tension in my soul. Like the Lord was calling on me. However I first mistook the wind, or the earthquake, or the fire for his voice. I thought the bigger the better, right? The thing that would change me the most is certainly the thing that God wants me to do, right? But just like Elijah, it was the gentle whisper that I had to listen to. 

A whisper changes your life by the impact of the words. Through the whisper I learned that the only thing I needed to change was my fear. I kept asking the Lord for a way out but I thought that that way out was only physically. Truly, in hindsight I can see that it was mentally. The Lord exposed the fear that I had through this situation. Instead of thinking I was running to God and a good plan, I was actually running away from being right where he wanted me to be. 

“Then the Lord told him, “Go back the same way you came, and travel to the wilderness of Damascus. When you arrive there, anoint Hazael to be king of Aram.” ‭‭1 Kings‬ ‭19‬:‭15‬ ‭

“The Lord told Elijah to go back where he came from and called him into ministry there. There is ministry to be done everywhere. I don’t have to leave my city to tell people about God. In fact, when Jesus was telling the disciples to tell others about him before he ascended he says “But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. And you will be my witnesses, telling people about me everywhere—in Jerusalem, throughout Judea, in Samaria, and to the ends of the earth.” ‭‭Acts of the Apostles‬ ‭1‬:‭8‬ ‭

He first tells them Jerusalem, right where they were. 

I was so wrapped up in how God had spoken to other people, through big changes, that I didn’t see that God was whispering to me and exposing what the root of this was. Maybe you’re like me, faced with a life-changing opportunity. I’m not saying that opportunity isn’t for you but I am saying that you don’t need to compare it to others. Not all of us are faced with a Burning Bush, some of us are faced with a whisper. To know whether it’s truly from God you have to belong to him and trust in him. My young adult pastor also gave me three main questions:

Does it align with God’s word?

Does it produce the character of Christ in your life?

Has it been confirmed by wise council?

These are great questions, but I’d like to add a couple more.

Is there anything in your life you could be running from with this? A family situation, embarrassment, fear?

Are you comparing your change, with this plan, to someone else’s?

Like I said, it’s easy to get caught up in the big dramatics, but sometimes God isn’t in those. He calls us to a place for a reason. And we are where we need to be because he wants us to do something there. It doesn’t always have to be extreme. Sometimes he’s in the quiet time, the small whisper that changes the way you think, not the plan of your life.